Thursday, October 1, 2009

Angel

Angel
by Jack Johnson

I've got an angel
She doesn't wear any wings
She wears a heart that can melt my own
She wears a smile that can make me wanna sing
She gives me presents
With her presence alone
She gives me everything I could wish for
She gives me kisses on the lips just for coming home

She could make angels
I've seen it with my own eyes
You gotta be careful when you've got good love
Cause the angels will just keep on multiplying

But you're so busy changing the world
Just one smile and you can change all of mine
We share the same soul
Oh oh oh ohhh
We Share the same soul
Oh oh oh ohhh
We Share the same soul
Oh oh oh ohhh
Oh oh oh ohhh
Umm umm umm uhhhhhhmm

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Was It A Dream?

The moment I saw you, I knew I would be content forever, lost in the beauty of your eyes. With that, came a sense of familiarity...a sense of comfort. That same scent, that same smile, that same face of an angel. Was it a dream? Then, snapped back into reality, I realized it wasn't a dream...but a dream come true.

When It Rains...

When it rains it reminds me of you. Although 2000 miles away is so far I still always walk outside in the rain and kiss it just for you. It never fails me. The rain will always come and I'll always love you. Next time you see a storm on the horizon please don't fear it's just heaven doing me the favor of taking you my kiss. Walk outside and kiss the rain whenever you need me.

Whenever you feel a warm breeze brush against you, that's the kiss I blew to you.

Monday, September 14, 2009

With You

Another one for you, Baby! *MUAH*
I love you!

With You (remix)
by: Chris Brown (feat. Karina Pasian)

[Karina Pasian:]
I need you boo, (REMIX!)
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over
The world tonight,
Said the hearts all
Over the world
Tonight
[Chris Brown:]
I need you boo(ooh!)
I gotta see you boo (yeah)
And the hearts all over
The world tonight,
Said the hearts all
Over the world tonight

[Verse 1: Chris Brown]
Hey! Little mama,
Ooh, you a stunna
Hot... lil figure,
Yes, you a winner
And I'm so glad to be yours,
You're a class all your own
And...
Ooh, little cutie
When... you talk to me
I swear... the whole world stops
You're... my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that you're mine
You are one of a kind and...

[ Bridge ]
You mean to me
What I mean to you and...
Together baby,
There is nothing we won't do
Cause if I gotchu,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.
And...

[ Chorus ]
Oh!
I'm into you,
And girl,
No... one else would do,
Cause with every kiss
And every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I... know I can't
Be the only one,
I bet there's hearts
All over the world
Tonight,
With the love of their
Life who feel...
Wat I feel when I'm

With you [x5]
Girl...
With you [x5]

[Verse 2:]
Oh Girl!
[Karina Pasian:]
Baby boy you know
I feel the same,
I'm so caught and
I can't explain how
You're smile and touch
Brightens up ma day,
You give me strength to
Push my fears away, So
You don't gotta worry,
You know I care for you,
I know you down for me,
I trust that you won't lie,
Cause ain't no other guy that
Can make me feel like you do,
You're my everything yeah

[Bridge:]
Cause I just need you,
I don't need money,
I don't see cars
Boy you're may all
And...

[Chorus:]
Oh!
I'm into you,
And boy,
No... one else would do,
Cause with every kiss
And every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I... know I can't
Be the only one,
I bet there's hearts
All over the world
Tonight,
With the love of they
Life who feel...
Wat I feel when I'm

With you [x5]
Boy...
With you [x5]

Yeah y-yeah

[Bridge 2:]
[Chris Brown:]
And I...
Will never try to deny,
That you are my whole life
Cause if you ever let me go,
I would die...
So I won't front,
[Karina Pasian:]
I don't need
No fancy offers,
Just be real with me,
That's all am asking,
Cause if I ever get lost
To find my way home,
I need to trust your love
To guide my way

[Chris Brown:]
I need you boo, (hey!)
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over
The world tonight,
Said the hearts all
Over the world
Tonight
Woo Ooohh... Yeah~
[Karina Pasian:]
They need it boo, (they need it)
They gotta see their boo, (whoa oohh whoa)
Said the hearts
All over the world
Tonight,
Hearts all over the
World tonight

[Chorus: Chris Brown]
Oh!
I'm into you,
And girl,
No... one else would do,
Cause with every kiss
And every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I... know I can't
Be the only one,
I bet there's hearts
All over the world
Tonight,
With the love of they
Life who feel...
Wat I feel when I'm

With you [x5]
Girl...
[Karina Pasian:]
With you [x5]
Ohh...

With you [x5]
[Karina Pasian:]
With you [x5]
Ohh...

Only with you
Hey y-yeah

Where Are You

I love you, Baby! This will always be ours...

Where Are You
by Natalie (feat. Justin Roman)

[Justin]
(I know you are out there baby...somewhere)
There's someone out there for me (I know there is somebody out there)
I know she is waiting so patiently (yeah)
Can you tell me her name? (Somebody tell me her name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane
How does she laugh? How does she cry? What's the color of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who's gonna complete my world?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who's gonna complete my world?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)

[Natalie]
I'm staring out at the sky (I see you baby)
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams (right here) yea-yeah
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who's gonna take me so high?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who's gonna take me so high?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)

[Justin]
There's someone out there for me (there's someone out there for me)
I know she is waiting so patiently (so patient)
Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane (that's right)

[Natalie]
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?

[Justin]
Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who's gonna complete my world?

[Natalie]
Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who's gonna take me so high?
[Together]
dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada (I know you out there)
dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada

[Justin Talking]
Where are you?? I'm going to look all over the world baby
'Cuz I know you are out there
I know this might sound crazy, but I think I love you
dadadadadada (that's right) dadadada
dadadadadadadadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada
Where are you??

Thursday, September 3, 2009

A Sick and Twisted Mind...(and it's ALL MINE!!!)

So there I was, smoking on the fantail. We'd just gotten back underway from our most recent port call. Most of the crew managed to survive with no documentation regarding their activities, however others were not so fortunate.

Anyway, as I was smoking, the most random (well, not for me) thought popped into my head. What if (and this is merely hypothetical...I think) we take people we don't like, behind CIWS, with a line tied to them. We could turn a regular fish call into a shark call by merely slitting their throat, lowering them down to where the props could finish them off, and go great-white fishing! How awesome would that be? Two birds with one stone. We would eliminate the crewmembers we don't like, PLUS my chief would be able to fish...making him a happy chief, therefore making a happy shop. Why hasn't this been done before? I say this should be policy. You know how few shitbags we'd have in the Guard???

Lately I've been visualizing slamming peoples' heads into the bulkhead, as I walk past them. Is that bad? There's this one kid onboard. And if I were to do it, it'd be like beating up the retarded kid in school. I mean, whenever the kid tries to talk, he ends up looking like a blind and retarded dog trying to lick peanut butter off the roof of his mouth, while trying to lick his balls. But this kid has absolutely no respect for anyone else, and I'd love to perform a post-birth abortion on this kid. Is that bad?

Anyway, I better get going.

Bye Koko! I miss you!

Friday, August 28, 2009

Still here...

Still underway, and still alive. I wasn't so sure about it yesterday. I had a migraine that felt like my head was in a vise, and my balls were kicked into my stomach about 2 feet. Let me tell you...that felt great. I think I've finally come to realize what kind of pain women are in during "that time of the month". I would've rather been shot 9 times in the back, and mauled by a dozen rabid Dobermans than experience that again. However, because it's me, I experience migraines like this on a fairly regular basis. I hope to God it's not a tumor, but you never know.

I guess I've been thinking a lot lately about my ex-fiance. Nothing bad, but just thinking about our friendship, our past relationship, and the whole "what if" and "what could've been". Probably not the best thing, since I'm happily in a relationship, but shit happens when I have too much time to think. She's one of my best friends, and will always remain so. She has, and always will be my unicorn...the one that always seems to slip away. *sigh* Anyway...

I think some really sick and fucked up shit while underway, and I will share those in another blog. Be prepared though, because they will be pretty fucked up. Well, time to "work".

Later!

PS - Koko, thanks for keeping me entertained during this patrol! =o)

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Underway...Totally Gay...

So, I'm underway. There's water. This is pretty gay. Wait, is that not the politically correct verbage? This is pretty Homer-sexual. On the real, it's not that bad. I'm enjoying this patrol much more than the last patrol. The internets have been finded. We passed Polloi Island (think about this one...wait for it...wait for it...there you go) located somewhere in the ocean, at some time. Hmmmmmmm...

Anyways, work is work, and the food is surprisingly good this patrol. As usual, my IT2 has been out of commission for about half of the patrol. BARRRRRRF!!! LOL. I feel sorry for her, but I don't have time to, because I'm picking up her slack. J/K. I really do feel bad for her. That's gotta suck feeling like shit all the time. Koko's been the one link to land that's been keeping me thoroughly entertained with e-mails. LOL. 1977 JC Penny. ROFLMAO!!!!! Anyways, I guess I better participate in this drill. Laters!

Monday, May 25, 2009

Over a Decade Later...

Over a decade after I graduated from Cascade, a number of residential treatment centers/schools have come under a lot of scrutiny. Let's not forget that Cascade also closed down a few years ago, and only now have people started speaking out about its "tactics" and whether they were ethical. The sad thing is that people are still sending their kids to schools like this without real research into the program itself. I'm not saying that some aren't good schools, just that parents need to really look into the type of program being offered. These schools aren't a cure-all, and sometimes end up screwing kids up even more...

Mount Bachelor Academy, near Prineville, Ore.

On April 28, the U.S. Supreme Court will hear arguments in a case that has caused anguish in the world of special education and children's mental health.

The case, Forest Grove v. TA, centers on the question of whether families with a disabled child have a right to seek reimbursement for private-school tuition from the state if the child did not first receive special-education services in public school. The legal question is a narrow one, but the case raises larger, more troublesome issues about student safety and the quality of educational services that families should expect when they place their children in private residential care, because the school involved in the case, Mount Bachelor Academy, near Prineville, Ore., is under state investigation for allegations of abuse reported by students and one employee. (See pictures of being 13 in America.)

A spokesperson for the Oregon Department of Human Services (DHS) declined to discuss the details of the ongoing investigations, which include a second inquiry based on possible licensing violations. But according to 10 students, two separate parents and a part-time employee interviewed by TIME — some of whom are involved in the inquiry — Mount Bachelor Academy regularly uses intensely humiliating tactics as treatment. For instance, in required seminars that the school calls Lifesteps, students say staff members of the residential program have instructed girls, some of whom say they have been victims of rape or sexual abuse, to dress in provocative clothing — fishnet stockings, high heels and miniskirts — and perform lap dances for male students as therapy.

Sharon Bitz, executive director of Mount Bachelor Academy, denies the charges. In an e-mailed statement to TIME, she said the reports of abuse are "inaccurate representations of Mount Bachelor Academy's therapeutic approach for struggling or underachieving teens. Some of the accusations are demonstrably false, while others have been exaggerated for shock effect."

In response to the accusations of sexual humiliation, Bitz told Oregon's Bend Bulletin newspaper in a recent interview that school officials have never instructed students to act in a way that would "sexualize them," and that the students' costumes came from their own dorm rooms and were chosen by the students. "We would never ask a student to give a lap dance," Bitz told the paper.

When the Supreme Court hears arguments in Forest Grove v. TA this month, it will not determine whether Mount Bachelor Academy — or any facility chosen by families — offers appropriate care. The parents of the student, TA (because he was a minor at the time the case was filed, the student is identified by his initials, and his parents have not made their names public), stand to gain only the right to seek reimbursement for the child's stay at Mount Bachelor under the Individuals with Disabilities Education Act (IDEA).

A ruling for the parents could have serious financial implications for cash-strapped school districts. Federal funding for private special-education placements, including residential and nonresidential programs, totaled $5.3 billion in the fiscal year 1999-2000, the most recent year for which data is available from the Special Education Expenditure Project, a national study begun in 1999 and funded in part by the U.S. Department of Education. In New York City alone, the number of reimbursement claims by parents who have unilaterally placed their kids in private special education rose from 3,023 to 4,068, and the city's spending on private placements went from $53 million in 2005-2006 to $88.9 million in 2007-2008, after the Second Circuit Court ruled in favor of the families in two similar cases in 2005 and 2006.

It is not known how many of the thousands of families who send their children to so-called therapeutic boarding schools each year receive tuition reimbursement via IDEA. The exact number of therapeutic boarding schools operating in the U.S. is also unknown, since no official body tracks them, but some estimates put the figure at 150 to 300. Tuition is far from cheap. Monthly costs at residential facilities are $5,000 and up; Mount Bachelor, which houses up to 125 students, charges $6,400 per month, and in 2008 revenue for the Aspen Education Group, which owns Mount Bachelor and is one of the largest chains of residential facilities for problem students, it topped $132 million.

The proceedings of Forest Grove are being watched with intense concern by school administrators and the teachers union as well as children's advocates. Most advocates argue that families should have access to private schools when public schools cannot provide free and appropriate public education for a disabled child, but most also say that public funds should not be used to pay for residential schools like Mount Bachelor. Such programs, they say, are overly restrictive and unproven, and virtually all their students — who typically have depression, substance use, behavioral problems or ADHD — can be safely treated within the community.

"We feel very strongly that for-profit residential facilities are completely inappropriate for special education. They have been shown to be ineffective and commonly employ practices that do harm," says Alison Barkoff, senior staff attorney at the Bazelon Center for Mental Health Law.

But because the programs are privately run, what happens within their walls is largely a mystery. No one knows whether the programs succeed or fail.

See pictures of a juvenile detention center in Texas.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Bill O'Reilly vs Eminem


In response to Bill O'Reilly's segment regarding Eminem's video for We Made You:

O'Reilly needs to take a chill pill. His desire for the media to ban Eminem's video is just one step closer to a communist society where the government regulates what we can and can't see, even more-so than it already does. Oh snap, isn't that what Hitler did to Germany? Politicians already have avenues of the media market in their pocket. That's why certain media outlets skew stories in a way that shows the better side of one of their "contributors", and why their analysts side with certain politicians so much.

Heil O'Reilly...

What a douchbag.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Brady vs Roethlisberger

Alright, we all know I'm a Steelers fan, and I know there's a lot of debate about who the better QB is, between Tom Brady and Ben Roethlisberger.

As much as I hate Brady, the numbers and the results are there to prove that he's a great QB. However, look at Roethlisberger's stats. They may not be as spectacular, but the results are equally impressive.

Pass Completion %
Brady - 63.0%
Roethlisberger - 62.4%

Yards-Per-Pass
Brady - 7.2
Roethlisberger - 7.9

Touchdowns
Brady - 197
Roethlisberger - 101

Interceptions
Brady - 86
Roethlisberger - 69

QB Rating
Brady - 92.9
Roethlisberger - 89.4

Also, with the TD numbers, keep in mind that Brady has been in the NFL for 9 seasons (drafted in 2000), including the ridiculously impressive 50 TD season, while Roethlisberger has been in the NFL for 5 seasons. There are other factors that have assisted in the success of both of these QB's. Brady has Randy Moss, Roethlisberger has the league's number one defense, for example. With this said, I realize Brady has 3 Super Bowl rings, and Roethlisberger "only" has 2, but does that make Brady a better QB? No. As a rookie, Brady didn't have the impressive 15-regular season win streak as a rookie, the record rookie-QB rating Roethlisberger had (98.1), nor did he have the record rookie-pass completion percentage that Big Ben had (66.4%). Then again, Roethlisberger doesn't have the 21-game win streak that Brady has, the 10-post season game win streak, or anywhere near the 50 TD season he had.

This is where the argument always goes...stats.

Now that the stats are out, here's my opinion. Both QB's are great, and both are destined for the Hall of Fame. Brady and Roethlisberger are two different types of QB's, and have different playing styles. Brady plays with finesse, and Roethlisberger plays with raw talent. With this said, during his rookie season, Roethlisberger took the formerly 6-10 Steelers to an unprecedented 15-1 season. And I realize that this isn't about Matt Cassel, but he took Brady's 16-0 Patriots to 11-5, further proving the overall strength of the Patriots. I believe that this will be an argument that will continue throughout their careers. Showing the strengths of Brady's Patriots, and Roethlisberger's Steelers, I believe that this argument is a total toss-up and only time will tell. As much as I want to say Roethlisberger is the better QB, Brady is a performer day in and day out. I also think that if Big Ben had not had his motorcycle accident and surgery before the 2006 season, his stats would be much better, but then again we'll see how Brady's return goes. And as I said, only time will tell who is the better QB.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

My Toothless Wonder

Angenique lost her first tooth yesterday!

Here I Sit...

Here I sit, bored out of my mind. Another mindless day at work, following an event less duty day. We're in the middle of CART (Cutter Annual Readiness Training). Basically a precursor TACT (Tailored Annual Cutter Training). There's a part of me that wishes we were underway (did I really just say that???), because at least then, there's always something going on.

Anyways, lately I've been doing a lot of thinking and reflecting. Usually that's never a good thing for me.

I've been thinking a lot about my faith, and how I've been questioning my faith more and more. It's led me to bring myself back to the events that led to my salvation, and the incredible feeling that overcame me when God reached down and held my heart for the first time (well, the first time that I would acknowledge).

I've also been reading a book, Gone to the Crazies, by Alison Weaver. It's a memoir about her time before, during, and after her time at The Cascade School. Cascade was the therapeutic (or cultlike, as the book describes it) boarding school that was my home, from January 29, 1997 through February 5, 1999. I had learned about Alison's book merely days ago, bought it, and started reading it yesterday. It has me hooked. Alison does a wonderful job explaining the wonders and horrors of Cascade, especially for those who never experienced it for themselves. For those of us who have, it brings back wave after wave of mixed emotions. It has reminded me of what I had forgotten over the past 10 years, some good and some bad. It has given me a little more substance, and a great example of what I have been aiming for, in my memoir (which is currently in the works).

Well, I better get going. I guess the government isn't really paying me to blog...